Friday, January 14, 2011
{ 2:37 PM }
Year 2 Sem 2 is coming to an end and i have already received 2 projects for the year! :'(
Had been coming late to school all the time or absent, just feel like giving up and just head to SIM straight.
I am moodless for everything. 4 months baby 4 months.
I had a really bad dream today and it woke me real hard.
Soooooooo here it goes.
I was shopping at some unknown shopping centre and i saw you, you told me, "Why are you here? I don't wish to see you, just go away."
I replied, "So all these while you don't even love me? Are you playing with my feelings?"
You said, "No, i loved you all these while, it's really painful and i don't want to drag you further..."
I replied,"If you loved me so much, you wouldn't have to see me in pain! It had been 4 fucking months, 4 months...I am speechless and it's too painful for me..."
You told me,"30th is my gf's and my anniversary."
I ran out of some random shop and cried real hard.
"Amanda, Amanda! Stop there!"
I retaliated back, "Fuck off from my life, I had enough of crying over you already. It's enough!"
All you did was to hug me and tell me, "Honey, it's over. The pain is over. I am here."
Initially i was rather persistent but i just couldn't help it because i really really love you.
This dream seemed so real and i did woke up in tears this morning and i was rather late for school too :/
This pain i can never describe...never ever will.
I am tired, really tired. I can't hang on anymore. Why am i so vulnerable?
I love you, xc.
