Thursday, January 21, 2010
{ 1:11 PM }
Rest in Peace, beloved grandmother.
she is one grandmother who never fails to spoil me despite her really old age.
she never fail to cook for me after school back in primary and secondary school days.
she will never fail to pull up the blanket to cover my shivering body when i am cold sleeping with her in the air-con room.
she will never fail to cane me when i had done something wrong.
she will never fail to bring food to me all the way to my table.
she will never fail to scold my maid if my maid doesn't bring me down to take bus even when i am in secondary 4.
she will never fail to even pour water for me even when i am like a couched potato.
she will never fail to cook meals for me that i requested.
she will never fail to wake me up for school every single morning even when i reached poly.
she will never fail to hug me when ever i say goodbye to her.
she will never fail to take care of me when i am sick.
All in all, i wished that i could wake her up right now at her coffin and tell her how much i love her and i want her to repay me back because she left me too early!!!! why? why? ):
i had been crying non-stop since i left school till around night time.
my grandma's last wish is for me to study hard and get excellent results and then show it to her.
i am sure she will be happy when i am happy.
sad when i am sad.
she will be watching over me wherever i am.
my deepest regret is not being able to tell you how much i love you before you left me and didn't make it in time for your cooked dinner on monday night and you just left like that...
why can't you wait for me?! why can't you wait?! why can't you wait till CNY when we can sit together and eat? why can't you wait for my 18th birthday?
it's too late to do anything now...
i love you, grandma, you will always be in my heart.
i just hate seeing you lying in the coffin "sleeping", you looked so peaceful, with no burdens.
lastly, rest in peace grandma.
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