okay, random post. was thinking through while bathing as before that i was reading my ex-schoolmates blogs whom made it to a JC. LOL. for the past 10 years of education, during my p1 to p6 days studying in a girls' school was exciting until p6 when i screwed up my PSLE and my dad forgot to appeal and that resulted me in chong boon secondary school. hai. a mixed school, new friends and new environment. i just don't understand why the boys were so childish back then and i meant extremely. everything were so different with boys around in class, i can't sit the way i used to sit in primary school, you know those really very very unglam one, leg on top of the other leg, not the feminine kind. in mixed school, you really have to watch the way you sit unless you want those pervertic boys to peep into your skirt. LOL! i joined band because the seniors told me i could get into junior college very easily and i believed. oh man, i kind of regretted joining band because they wouldn't let me play saxaphone because i had to put braces and so i ended up in percussion. anyway, a few years later i realised band made me have many memories i had with my friends like arguments and fun! sec 4, marked the end of my secondary school life. the first half of the year, it was like a honeymoon period for me until my prelim results were so bad and then i decided to 'pull up my socks' to work hard again. parents nagging, family members stressing me. my teachers have very high expectations of me. i decided to make a comeback for myself because my grades were falling because i was plain lazy, extremely lazy. when it was 'O' levels, i worked hard but not my 100% so i really regretted. my F&N, during prelims was A1, actual 'O' levels was C6 and my eng was a B but actual 'O' levels was C6. total was 12 points for R4 already, my eng teacher was shaking her head when she saw me. i really disappointed her. hai. F&N was screwed. how i wished time would turn back and if i were to work harder, i would have gone to a JC. ): 12 jan was a horror to me, i couldn't believe my eyes when i looked at the results slip. i thought i would never make it to a poly but eventually i did, republic poly. engineering course. oh man, shocked because i do not wanna touch maths and physics for the rest of my life but looks like now i have to go back to square 1 again. hais. ): last week, i had a doctor appt at MT.E, she knew i only put in 60% of my effort in exams. oh man. she says i can make a comeback if i want, be on medication and i can focus on the things that i am doing. i asked whether i can go to a local u? she said definitely. :D i felt encouarged and i decided i will work hard in poly and get a GPA as high as 3.5 onwards and get into a local U like NTU maybe? i hope i dun go crazy and stab the professor! nothing is impossible with GOD guiding me! yeah! end of my super long-winded story.
