Saturday, July 12, 2008
{ 5:02 AM }
i can feel this excruciating pain in my heart that i cannot describe. ):
i am sorry.
what can i do to make it up to you?
i know you know much i gone through with my family and other stuffs.
i was really scared when you guys left me alone at some strange place. i told myself, they are just hiding somewhere, they wont leave me alone just like that because i trusted you guys. (:
we are like potassium and water. it reacts so fast that you dun even know what will happen next. ):
i am really sincerely truly sorry about this whole matter.
i really dun mean it and i actually blurted out.
the 7 page msges i sent you, every sentence means alot.
i mean, i cannot afford to lost the soul changed amanda-popular guy-nice guy-handsome guy like you and i truly mean it. (:
please, dun let her come into our lives and destroy everything. please. whatever i do, it always come with a reason. (:
rmb what i told you last night? XD
those funny, nutty, HORNY, cranky jokes. i want.
*pokes* i thought you weren't scared! this phrase kept coming through my mind.
everytime i think bout this, i would smile to myself. (:
and how i whined into the phone like some kuku. awww.
it will look silly but i just cant stop smiling.
as i was doing my eng situational writing, i could not concentrate but eventually i made it.
as i was typing this post in the school library before setting off to ngee ann poly later in the afternoon, i feel the ache.
i just wanna let you know how much i really treasure this 4 years of wonderful friendship.
we may have ups and downs and even arguments. but i hope every arguments can make us know what's right and wrong.
i really want to reconcile back. (:
i could no longer hold back my tears like how i used to already.
